At the bottom of a cul de sac in Warrenton, 190 miles east of Kansas City, stands a modest, pale-yellow house where Jennifer and David Beaird have lived the last 10 years. Jennifer’s mother Kathy Gordon lives with them.
Until last Labor Day, Sept. 5, the house was also home to the Beairds’ two children, 13-year-old Gavin and 7-year-old Chloe.
…Labor Day, 2016. A day the Beairds will never forget. Their personal day of infamy.
About 6 p.m., a 61-year-old drunk and distracted driver – a three-time-DUI loser whose license had been suspended — slammed into the back of the Beairds’ Hyundai Elantra in his Cadillac Escalade as the Beairds were stuck in traffic on eastbound I-70 in Blue Springs, just west of Adams Dairy Parkway.
It was a horrendous crash. James Leroy Green of Odessa had his big SUV on cruise control and wasn’t looking at the road. Instead, he was, by his own admission, looking down at his phone, thumbing through song titles.
The Beairds (pronounced Beard) were headed back to Warrenton after a trip to Nebraska. They were in the left lane. So was Green. As the SUV hurtled toward the Hyundai, Jennifer, seated in the front passenger seat, looked at the side mirror and saw the SUV bearing down.
“Dave,” Jennifer said, “I don’t think this guy’s going to stop.”
David glanced up into the rearview mirror. All he remembers is seeing “a grey blob.”
After the shattered glass had settled and metal and plastic from a total of five vehicles had exploded and come to rest…and after help had arrived, Gavin and Chloe, who had been in the back seat, were dead. David was paralyzed from the chest down. He wasn’t aware of that in those awful, hazy minutes, but he knew this much, “I’m in trouble.”
Other than a severely bruised right arm, Jennifer was uninjured.
“I was very aware of what was going on around me,” she said quietly. “And I just sat there.”
On Saturday, Jan. 28, nearly five months after the event that grotesquely changed their lives, David, Jennifer and Jennifer’s mother Kathy sat around the kitchen table in that pale-yellow house and talked to me for more than two hours. They talked, courageously and openly, about what they had been through; about what they are going through; about coping with an almost unimaginable tragedy; and about feeling their way into a dark and formless future.
Understandably, it is not the least bit salving to them that Green, who is tentatively scheduled to go to trial in June, has been in the Jackson County Detention Center on $200,000 bond since the crash. And it does not ease the pain that he is facing six felony charges, including two counts of vehicular, intoxicated second-degree murder. And it does not give them much satisfaction that he may well spend his remaining years in jail.
“It doesn’t ever bring the kids back, and that’s all that matters to me,” Jennifer said.
Meeting and becoming a couple
David, 40, and Jennifer, who will turn 38 this month, met at Missouri State University in Springfield, MO. He was raised in Sikeston, in Missouri’s Bootheel. She had been living with her mother and four younger brothers in upstate New York and was preparing to follow a boyfriend to Missouri State. But they broke up, and instead of cancelling her plans, she headed west anyway, ready for a new adventure.
“Mom and my brothers came out here and dropped me off,” Jennifer said with a smile. “I’ve never been afraid of life. I just grab the bull by the horns and go and do.”
Jennifer was living in a dorm, David in an apartment, and each had a roommate. Their respective roommates were dating – which led to Jennifer and David meeting.
Never keen on academics, Jennifer dropped out of Missouri State and worked at a variety of jobs. David persevered with his education and, in 2000, got a degree in fisheries and wildlife management. His first post-college job was with the Missouri Conservation Department’s wildlife division in St. Charles County, just west of St. Louis.
David and Jennifer married in April 2001. On March 1, 2003, Gavin was born.
A few years later, they were doing well enough to build a home in the Warrenton subdivision — new at the time — where they have lived ever since. It’s a modest, two-story home, with a relatively big kitchen that flows into a family room with a large window and lots of natural light.
When Chloe was born, on Feb. 9, 2009, Jennifer had a good job, working in accounting and human resources for a Holiday Inn in Wentzville, 16 miles east of Warrenton. She lost that job because of the Great Recession, however, and was without work for a while before an opportunity presented itself in Warrenton.
To many people, waiting tables at Denny’s wouldn’t look like much of an opportunity, but it was a godsend to Jennifer. “I was so grateful for that job,” she said, “because we were struggling.”
Six years ago, David got a job with a contracting company affiliated with Ameren, the St. Louis-based electrical and natural gas company. It was another outdoor job – the kind he loves – that involved scouting and patrolling power lines in three St. Louis area counties — St. Louis, St. Charles and Franklin.
With time, Jennifer found better-paying work. Five years ago, she went to work as a tax preparer in the H&R Block office in Warrenton, and three years ago she was promoted to leader of the office’s eight-member team. She also handles the payroll for a hotel-refurbishing company one of her brothers has in New York City.
Quality of life improves
By 2016, life was no longer a huge struggle. The family wasn’t living from paycheck to paycheck. Gavin was changing from boy to young man, and Chloe was in elementary school. The family loved to do things together – from camping, hiking, walking and picking fruit and berries at a nearby orchard to going to Walt Disney World in Orlando, which they did earlier last summer.
Life was good, and, as David said, “So many things were going right.”
On Labor Day, everything instantly turned wrong on I-70 in eastern Jackson County.
Now, David and Jennifer are dealing with the tragedy in sharply contrasting ways.
Stuck in a wheelchair, David is prone to ruminating. He has replayed the fateful moments in his mind countless times, wondering why he and his family had to be in that particular place at that particular time. He asks himself why he was in the left lane that evening, when he almost always drives in the right lane. Or why he didn’t have ice cream, like the other family members did, at a convenience-store stop about an hour earlier. Maybe that would have delayed their departure a couple of minutes, long enough to put them out of harm’s way near the Adams Dairy Parkway exit.
For a long time he was in the deepest hole he had ever been in and saw no way out. Although he never contemplated suicide, he would ask himself, “How can I speed this life up…and get this over with?”
Over time, he stopped second-guessing himself so much and gradually began to see some progress, albeit progress registered in millimeters.
“I want to say I’m doing a little better,” he said in a phone conversation a few days before the Warrenton meeting. “I think every day it’s easier to get up. I’m kind of getting used to my new body – not that I want to…I’ve found that trying to stay active helps a lot.”
He’s not back to driving, doesn’t know if he will work again and, really, has no idea what the future holds.
Unlike David, Jennifer has resisted, for the most part, replaying the awful loop in her mind. She tries to be as positive as possible. She likes to say positivism is just as infectious as negativity. She also has the advantage of being able to get out and move around and keep working, which serves as a blessed distraction.
She’s still leading the H&R Block office and still doing her brother’s payroll. Not that staying busy can replace the void left by the loss of the children or block out the pain of seeing her husband struggling to adjust to his more limited mobility.
She looked tired the day we talked. Her expressive, hazel eyes projected gentleness and softness, but little life. She had been awake for a time during the night, thinking about the children. Long working hours were taking an added toll. As the four of us talked, tears frequently filled Jennifer’s eyes, and at one point, while talking about her determination to try to remain positive, her words trailed off in a cracking voice:
“I’m just continuing on with life and trying to look forward and go on…because it really hurts…so bad.”
The last two words were barely audible.
A moment later, however, she was trying to will herself back up, saying: “I don’t like to be sad; I don’t like to be hurt; I don’t want to live in that sadness. It’s exhausting.”
Tomorrow: Jennifer and David plan for a future away from Missouri
Outstanding job, Fitz! I feel so bad for these two but am glad that you have taken the time to tell their story.
Thanks, Mike…From your comments on my first post about this last year, I know you were as deeply affected by this as I.
Jim:
I certainly admire the lengths you go to research and report your blogs, like a top reporter, which you still are. It is good to hear more about the Beairds after that horrible tragedy. They are inspiring and awesome people.
Thanks for all your effort in talking to them. Your blog should be published in The Kansas City Star.
Laura
Thanks, Laura…This is a case I haven’t been able to get out of my mind, and I had been wanting to get together with the Beairds since last year. At the same time, I wanted to wait until 2016 was behind them. Not that 2017 can be significantly better…
This, like the story you did on the accident in Olathe, is outstanding.
You’re referring to the tragic death several years ago of 16-year-old Zach Myers, who was killed by a flying book bag when the speeding car he was riding in struck a parked car on a narrow street in Olathe. I wrote several pieces, which can be found by plugging Zach’s name into the search box at upper right on this page.
A journalist who can’t get something out of his/her mind can be annoying as hell. But it is something we need more of in this world.
+100
You could become Kansas City’s best investigative reporter. Someone should do it.
Great work, Jim!
I am humbled by your collective reactions and tremendously grateful for your readership and loyalty…More than 40 years ago I wrote a congratulatory note to a New Yorker writer on a piece of fiction he had written and that I really enjoyed.
He wrote back, saying, “All a writer needs is an appreciative reader, and you are such a one.”
I feel the very same way, especially today. I put my heart and soul in this story, and you guys realize it.
I am so grateful to the Beairds for agreeing to let me come over Warrenton and talk to them. They are two of the most courageous people I’ve ever met, and I believe they are going to pull through this nightmare and make a new life for themselves. They are fighters.
This coincidence is eerie: I clicked on your entry, “Power of the pen” under Related, above, and there is the name of a judge, Robert Beaird.
Anything to do with the lunar event tonight??
A retired Jackson County judge…no relation.
I know. I’m just speaking to the juxtaposition of the names. Apparently you don’t find it as coincidental as I do.
I hope that you telling this story, and your readers’ empathy for the Beairds, gives the family some sense that a little bit of good is coming from this most senseless event. My heart aches for them. God bless them.
Thank you for the post.
I have exchanged texts with David today, Bob, and he is very happy with the story. I’m sure they appreciate that people’s hearts are aching for them in Kansas City today.
Good work like this comes from having an independent, free will to follow your own inspirations, and not the commands of the “scripted” editors. Same with the classroom teacher. On your next sub job, throw the “lesson plan” out the window and follow your instincts.
Given the prosecutor’s and judiciaries’ habit of going light on DUI offenders in Jackson County it can’t hurt to keep this in the public eye. Remember the Mertensmeyer kid who got 120 days in jail for killing a pedestrian? Mom was a big bucks Mission Hills lawyer.
And who can forget the disappearing case of Three Wheel Lokeman, popped while driving around the downtown area with a front wheel missing. First the court ignored the fact that she refused the breathalyzer and then the case disappeared never to be seen in Jeff City.
Given that Jackson County appears to have some of the best prosecutors and judges money can buy, a little publicity could prevent Green from walking for time served.
Dear Jim,
Thank you so much for writing this story. These tragedies happen and then we forget about the victims. Our son was in this same accident. He was driving the Acura that James Green plowed into after hitting the Beaird family. Fortunately, his injuries were minor. You reached out to him to see if he would speak to you about that day. We did contact him on your behalf, but he really didn’t want to talk about what happened and we respect his feelings. He was just a 21 year old college kid, heading back to school when this happened.
There is not a day that has gone by that we have not thought about the Beaird family and the loss they endured. It is unfathomable. James Green caused so much destruction that day. He never even applied his brakes. The force with which he hit the cars was tremendous. After the cars were processed and released, we went to try and retrieve some of our son’s personal possessions from the car. All of the cars from the accident were at the same lot, right next to each other. We can’t even begin to describe the feelings we felt when we saw them. Shaking hands, weak legs, as well as feeling teary and nauseous at the same time. It was difficult not to break down crying. And then you feel ANGER. You keep asking yourself why people continue to drive when they are impaired? Why can’t they put down their phones?
We hope the Beaird family can find some peace and some way forward. Their courage is inspiring.
Lynne and Rob Genau
Thank you so much for your comment, Lynne and Rob…Yes, I saved your letter to the editor, which appeared in The Star in October and placed a call to your home recently and left a message, hoping to talk to your son. When I didn’t get a return call, I figured — as you confirm here — that it was too painful for him to talk about. I’m so sorry he had to go through that, but I’m certainly glad he got out of it with minor injuries.
It defies imagination that there are people like James Green, who run amok in the world, totally disregarding the health and welfare of their fellow humans.
What an emotional picture your words paint, Lynne, of the scene at the tow lot. If I could have added one more element to this story, it would have been finding that Escalade and photographing it.
Again, thanks for your comment and give my best wishes for a happy and bright future to your son. And tell him, of course, to keep looking in that rearview mirror and anticipating trouble. My father used to tell me, “Drive like everybody else is crazy, and, to the chagrin of my wife and daughter, I do. And, yet, even when you’re being as safe as possible — as the Beairds were — shit happens. There’s no way to control the James Greens of the world.